I’m not your typical Christian gal. I don’t do the whole pushy, shove-it-down-your-throat stuff, or flaunt my faith piously for all to see. In fact, I’ve been dubbed “backslidden” and “far from God” because I don’t fit into the mold.
For example, here are a handful of things that set me apart:
- I will go to bars
- I like to drink alcohol (though, I don’t drink a lot)
- I like Bohemian/Gypsy-style clothing
- I don’t attend church
- I follow my intuition (aka: Holy Spirit)
- I don’t spew “Christian-ese” at people, or try to convert sinners
- I read books like The Da Vinci Code, Harry Potter, Twilight, and even –gasp!– Rob Bell’s books
- I love the Enneagram
- I believe it’s okay –good, even!– to have doubts, and to question things
- I was not (and still am not) a fan of Donald Trump
- I refuse to watch Fox News
However, lest you think I’m a complete heretic . . .
- I do not agree with homosexuality (though, I’m willing to befriend those who live this lifestyle)
- I am against abortion (in other words, I am pro-Life)
- I believe the Bible is God’s living & active Word
- I don’t find it necessary to curse (swear)
- I will not ‘hide’ my faith in order to seek approval, or be “accepted”
- I do still avoid certain content, people, and situations, in order to guard my heart and mind (Prov. 4:23)
If you had a scale, with the far-left/Liberals on one end, and the far-right/Fundamentalists (& Evangelicals) on the other end, I’d say I fall somewhere just slightly to the right of centre.
I like to think of myself as a free-spirit or nonconformist Christian (heck, even a Christian rebel!). 😛
A lot of mainstream Christians and I do not see eye-to-eye on a lot of things, and I’m okay with that. (I do so wish, however, that more of them were open-minded enough to have healthy discussions with me, rather than jumping to conclusions, or judging me right out of the gate!). Sigh.
Recently, I read an article that talked about “deconstructing faith”. I found this really interesting, especially since it’s quite similar to the process I went through, myself, quite a number of years ago (and am, perhaps, still going through).
Academics have dubbed it ‘theological deconstruction’, but in simple terms, they’re referring to what happens when a person asks questions that lead to the careful dismantling of their previous beliefs. Some talk about a “mid-faith crisis”, where deeply held doctrines are re-examined and sometimes jettisoned in favour of more progressive ideas. Many continue to self-identify as Christian throughout this time, others take on another label which they say carries less baggage, such as ‘follower of Jesus’.Sam Hailes, Premier Christianity
The dilemma for those experiencing a shift in their faith is often figuring out which of their beliefs are true and good, and which are false and harmful… This period of questioning can be painful and often isolating, as Christians are sometimes afraid to voice their doubts or admit to a change of theology.Sam Hailes, Premier Christianity
The problem comes when people “deconstruct” their faith through questioning, but then fail to “reconstruct” it, afterwards. This is where you find a lot of the ex-Evangelicals, and those who’ve renounced faith all together. And it breaks my heart.
My sincere hope, in writing this post, is to find other free-spirit Christians, like myself, who don’t fit into the box (and don’t care to, either!)… those who are followers of Jesus, and hold to the inerrancy of Scripture, but who strongly believe that Jesus came to set us free — not to burden us under a list of “thou-shalt-not’s“. (Leave me a comment, if that’s you!)